Posted on June 27, 2012
I have been away from this site for a while, having had nothing much new to report as happening recently.
Although I am about to graduate with an honours degree, I have suffered a considerable knock to my confidence in myself as an academic person, having received a dismal mark for my dissertation. This most likely went some way to lowering my overall grade point average, and despite assurances that I shouldn’t care as long as I have my degree (which of course is true) I can’t help but feel as if one of the few avenues of career direction has been considerably narrowed down.
On the other hand, I’m quite relieved to leave behind a part of my life which has involved constant mental struggle and the basing of my thoughts, ideas and self-esteem entirely on the mark of my latest essay. Although in many ways a true calling in my life, my time at university has been a dramatically life-altering experience.
Many of the best and worst times of my life were contained within this period of time, and I had pinned so much hope on my ability to get there in the first place that, when it did go wrong, it was a living nightmare.
But now it is time to pick up the pieces, take note of what I have learnt – and possibly forgotten – and keep pushing on, even if I can’t see exactly where I’m going.